Children

So it all started a few weeks ago when one of our good friends found out she was having twins! What made it even better was twins don't run in her family or her husbands! This made me Very jealous , not because I can't get pregnant or am even thinking about kids at the moment, but because I have always wanted twins. The likelihood of me having them is slim to none, but hey, a girl can dream can't she? So I brought the good news to my husband and we sent our congratulations. I then mentioned the jealousy factor to my husband and that's when the odd behavior started. Any questions and comments about children and he shuts down. Obviously he though I was catching baby fever. But I am not and told him so. We made an agreement at the start of our marriage that we would wait at least 5 years befor having kids. I reminded him of this and told him that's just what women do when our friends have babies! We talk about babies, we coo at babies and hold babies and for a few weeks we are in love with everything involving babies!!! It's the hormones and biological clock people. Get used to it. But that doesn't mean I want to prop my legs up and start popping out children! I am not ready, end of story, alas, my husband doesn't seem to grasp that fact. So I sat him down and explained all of this. And he looks me in the eye and says "I don't think I want to have children" I laughed, of course he wanted children, not now of course, but in time, he told me so himself, many times. I told him this, then he says "no I am serious, I don't think I ever want to have children"
Talk about a bombshell.
I was furious, this isn't something you tell your wife a week after your one year anniversay! I was pissed. We have talked about having kids many times, we even had to have an in-depth discussion during pre-canna (church run pre marriage councilling). Never ONCE in our 8 years of knowing eachother has he ever mentioned this. Then he says he doesn't want to talk about it and that was it. So for the next month I sat in a depression. How could he do this to me! Then I began to look at it logically. Four years to go, four years is a long time, a lot can happen, he will change his mind, he has a biological clock too. And I tried to keep my panicked insanity to myself. After all, who do you confide to that your crazy husband doesn't want children ever whenwe aren't even talking about having children for another 4 years?
Everyone will think I am nuts!
So on a recent trip to Florida, when we were both trapped in the car for eight hours I forced him to talk about it. He had very crummy answers. He said the reason he didn't want kids was because he didn't want our kids asking the kinds of questions he asked when he was a kid (WTF?!) and that when you had kids your entire life became about them, there was no more husband and wife any more, I would get fat and lazy and that would be the end of our romance. Again WTF!? Ok so yea that is what happened to his parents, but it didn't happen to mine! And it doesn't happen to everyone! I plan on being a hopeless romantic till the day I die, kids or no kids.
So by the end of the conversation he conceeded to not write off children forever and I told him that 7 years was my limit. (that would put me at 30) I am confident he will change his mind, but the panic still gets to me every now and then. So to be a rebel I went out and paid ten dollars for a cute baby outfit with dinosaurs on it (dinos are his favorite thing ever aside from Legos) and it is hidden safely away, so when I have a panic moment, I just glance to where I hid it and remind myself I am being silly. And I know one day I will be able to get that outfit out and we will laugh about how he said he never wanted children.

Give a chef a frying pan and they will show you a hundred different amazing things. Give a child a frying pan and they will show you the proper way to use it to defend yourself from a fire breathing dragon.

I Am Alive!

That's right, I did not die!
So here we are, more than a year after my last post and boy what a year! Paul and I were married on March 13, 2010 in the beautiful city of Charlotte, NC. It was a beautiful ceremony with all our friends and family, we even had a sushi bar! I lost all the weight I was trying to lose and looked awesome in my dress! Then we went on our honeymoon to Jamaica for a week, then Paul left for a week long business trip. I missed him so. We then moved to Augusta, GA (well, I did, he was already there) then in November we moved to Buford, GA which is about an hour north of the Atl. We have a beautiful three bedroom town house that over looks a tree and off in the distance a community pool. Paul still works for a jewelry company and I have gone back to working for Williams-Sonoma. We celebrated our anniversary last month with a trip to see Peter Pan in Atlanta and frozen wedding cake full of spores.
It has been about 5 months since I was last violently ill (an after effect of salmonella) which has been the most wonderful 5 months since I left the hospital 4 years ago.
I cut my hair back in may of last year, the heat in Augusta was unbearable. So off it went from just below my shoulder blades to up to my chin. I miss it ever so much so now I am growing it back out again, this time with less split ends!
In Augusta we made some of the best friends we will probably ever have, two military couples who are now stationed in Germany and Hawaii! We miss them a lot and we talk as often as we can, they will be away for about three years and then hopefully will relocate back to the east coast.
I am going to try and take a picture a day this month, a new project just for fun to try and better document my life. I will post the ones you have missed since April first!
I have gained back all my pre-wedding weight so I am now on a diet, I am back down to 140, down from 151 a month ago, my goal is to fit back into my wedding dress by July! I will keep you updated.
Well here are some wedding photos and the start of my photo project! Enjoy!

You know what's really funny? When vegans get eaten by wild animals! It's like POW! That is what you get for questioning the food chain and circle of life!